Somehow or Rather.. I feel that I'm Drifting. Drifting from somebody whom I adored. And its all because of the person's hobbies and interests. It conflicts with mine but surprisingly, the interest contradicts what this person is like. You noe how it feels to be neglected. Being alone in this world. Yes. I am afraid of being alone. I am dependent. I can't make my own choices and I need feedbacks. However, I don't need pointers when it comes to FOOD of course.
How would you feel if you are not treasured like you used to. You are constantly being mocked, humiliated, shouted at. For no Rhyme or Reason. So as to Protect ur " PROPERTY ". You should noe who u are.. And since you don't want to listen, is not able to understand...Here you go....
Where is the LOVE? Where is the TIME? When can things turn around like it used to? I'm confused with the changes that is circulating amongst us. You especially.
I will have no time for leisure with effect from next week. I will be busy occupying my time like how you always occupy yours. The only difference is that this is not of my preferance. I just know i had to do it so that (I HOPE) you are able to be in my shoes, being neglected and all. I wouldn't have the time. No TIME at all, since I will be busy day to night on weekdays while you will be busy everyday including weekends. Whats the logic.? If you are going to put your harm's way and having 40% percent chance of cancer. I asked you to fast. A simple request but no amount of love could buy you that.
Let me state that I come only in 4th place in that little beating heart. Pathetic ain't it? I believe so.

Its 7.43pm and my parent are not back yet. They went to JB early ytd morn arnd 7.00am and stayed over at a local hotel i suppose. Its their suppo-sed "HONEYMOON" celebrating their Jubilee year...(25th anniversary i mean)... And my mom's b'day was yesterday. Not a honeymoon exactly coz my lil' bro and Nyai was around. haha. plus.. they also went there for a purpose. To bring my Nyai Berubat.
Well.. i went a hunger strike yesterday. Moosie accompanied me at home in the evening since he had something to do in the afternoon. And my brother came back coz he thought he wanted to celebrate my mom's b'dae as a family but he didn't noe that she wasn't around. So, he slept and watched tv in order to accompany me.. By the time moosie came, he was preparing to leave. I bet he trust moosie will take care of me.. I ate Big breakfast in the morn, delivery paid by my bro and that was practically all.. And it lasted till moosie came. I thought we would have a nice dinner somewhere but he disagreed saying that most of the shops will be closed.. SIGH! So, he proposed whipping up Instant Noodles with Eggs.. Curry flavour somemore. I said I wouldn't mind as long as he did the cooking..~which he did by the way~ And he taught me how to cook Noodles and Eggs a different way. I hate how the NEW MAGGI tastes..YUCK!!The noodles are bleargh!! Moosie left at 9++ and sis came back at 11pm...
Let's see.. I was not in the mood to cook but seeing my sis cooking Maggie(Chicken flavour), made me drool.. So, today's breakfast was Instant Noodles but of diff flavour.. I overheard my sis' BF kinda Mocking at us for not being able to cook over the phone.... Coz he can coOk for god's sake.. Its not that I can't, I'm just plain lazy.. However, I decided to whip a proper meal since I didn't eat rice for 2 days.. I'm proud of myself for being able to cook sardines and fried long beans with eggs. And it tasted good. My sis on the other hand fried chicken seaweed!! Heee.. See... "If Ain can cook, So can U!!" I just lazed around doing the household chores today. Glad that the house is spick and span.. Moosie's off to fishing again... He just came back from a fishing trip ytd morn and off he goes again.. "Budak nie eh.. tak tau duduk diam"..
Well..that's It! BYE!!

Adventuur De Race... ( or whatever it is called)
12-15km race.. And Guess WHAT?!! we got 3rd!!! Haha.. So unexpected coz we lost our way acouple of times and we lost 15 minustes of our precious lead because I PUKED!!
Yes! I puked.. I think it was the H20 and the heat. Well.. i'm happy enough but I'm left with SORES all over my body. Muscle aches, back aches, bladder aches.. Yada yada yada...Endless aches..

So, I need to rest till I'm feeling much better. Skipped malay dance coz had to visit Nyai who is feelinfg sick. her blood pressure shot up to 200+ and she had chest pains.. She's not getting any younger. She is at her retirement age and shouldn't be burdened with caring for her grandchildren. Perhaps I should stay with her since she is alone in her 3-room flat and then I could at least help her with the chores.. but there is a lot of HMMMMSSS.. that i must consider.
Went with MoOsie to JB to get his dosage of Cigarettes and pump fuel since CNY is a couple of days away..

BAZ is leaving to Dubai for a year this Thurs. I wanna send her off.. We've grown up since our Sec school days and every1 is busy with their careers..
Wawa - Police Officer(still training) Baz - Emirates Stewardess Farina - KFC Asstnt manager (Recently married) Noora - Cust Svc Exec (I think with Tamp polyclinic) Shid - Studying Sarina - Married with a kid OTW Fatin - Still studying (Yr 3 with NYP) Nadiah - Police Officer
And the list goes on.. How time flies. I will hit the dbl 2 this yr and Gosh I feel OLD...

Its the Holidays now....9 weeks and coming a week of it, I'm feeling bored. I have a job but i'm too lazy to go because the job is not fixed at an area. I have to hop from one place to the other. I may be at Town one day and hop to Jurong the next day. Ma' Fan la... So, i decided to AWOL.. Hehe. what a term to describe my MIA. I'm pretty worried about my grades which will be released late this month or next month.. I havea feeling i will get GPA of x<3. Serves me right for skipping classes like noobody's biz. I will just have to pray for the best then!

Must I say that I LOVE MOOSIE again?.. I do LOVe HIM. I REALLY DO!! *Moose, if u happen to be reading it, give me a call pls*...

IMPORTANT!!! I AM NOT ABLE TO MAKE OUTGOING SERVICES ON MY MOBILE COZ STARHUB CUT MY FREAKING OUTGOING SERVICE. TRUST ME FOR NOT PAYING MY BILLS ON TIME! HOWEVER, I CAN STILL RECEIVE CALLS N MESSAGES.. PLEASE TAKE NOTE! ;-)

LOVE, AIN